Worked today. Well more like went to work. Didn't get much done. Am still (duh) very sad about Mao.
I'm not second guessing what I had to do but I am wondering if I should have done it sooner etc. I think that's all part of grieving.
Tossed his litter box (though did manage to dump litter on the floor *sigh* while doing so) and scooper. I left one blanket at the vet as they can use them, and will likely donate his other blankets to a shelter.
Open leftover food was turfed. The rest of the dry kibble and the 2 cans of wet food that are left will be given to a coworker who has 2 cats on that formula of food (K/D from Hills)
The house feels empty. Even though it is usually just me and him it still feels empty.
Dealing with stuff
February 6th, 2007 at 04:30 am
February 6th, 2007 at 06:48 am 1170744503
My Bogus Khan left this world at 4:30 am Sunday morning October 5th 2003. He passed at home, on my bed in my arms. At 10:30 I asked my SO to please put his cat cage, litter box, etc away because he would not need them anymore. I was crying then and crying now as I recall that heartbreaking night.
I also had him put away the dry cat food, and everything else. Reading this post of yours takes me right back to that night because I did many of the same things you are doing right now.
Please try not to torture youself about wheather nor not you should have done it sooner. When you did it is when you did it and that was probably the right time. I don't know if this will help much, but when it came time for Bogus to let go, he let me
know in a way that was unmistakable. He tried so hard to rally for me because our love bond was so strong. He would eat and drink for me when no one else in the family could get him to. But at 5:30 pm Saturday afternoon, he turned his head away from the little white ceramic plate of juice and tuna(always one of his favorites) and flatly refused any more food or water and at that point I knew it was time to start letting him go.
What I'm trying to say is this: there will come a point in time, that you know in your heart of hearts what to do and when to do it. And that time will be the right time.
February 6th, 2007 at 01:01 pm 1170766918
Thank you so much for your kind words. I got up this morning and looked for Mao - I guess I'll do this for a while. I know in my heart I did the right thing. Still not easy.
I started to tear up reading about your Bogus - he sounds like the most special of cats. You were blessed to have him in your life - it sounds like he gave you so much!
February 6th, 2007 at 04:46 pm 1170780419